“don’t be this way”
he said.
I am pumping blood
but I’m not sure I am alive
i cower under life’s thumb
more than often than not
and it is nonsense that drives my spirit
a dream sequence from a movie
that will never be made
whatever propelled me forward
for 30 years and some months
has been exhausted
or contained
or both.
i am humbled by your ability to love
so fully, so wholly
a person so flawed
and repaired over a lifetime
many lifetimes, it seems
i am humbled
but not ready
and i am sure i will regret it
in time
– sheila c.